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27.10.03  

man, i suck at posting regularly.

so i guess my current trend is to post something at work, claiming to expand or revisit the topic upon my return home, and then simply let the topic vanish into oblivion. well, i guess the explanation is that... i'm lazy. i thought of trying to come up with a better excuse, but i really am lazy. to lazy to make excuses, even.

i've been thinking lately about internal visualizations - seeing an idea in your head visually rather than textually. if that doesn't make sense, here's my own personal example - the calendar. i think of the months of the year, and the days within those months, in a sort of vertical racetrack diagram. july is at the top in the middle, and the line between december and january is at the bottom in the middle. that doesn't really make for symmetrical straightaways, but it's in my own head and i can twist it as i see fit. what's more, when i think of time passing, i visualize myself on the track, seeing the days and months lie straight ahead or curve off to the left as the case may be.

i'd like to know from where i got this idea.

kat tells me she has something similar in her mind, having to do with days or weeks or months or something like that. anyone else?

posted by exedinburger | 12:44 PM (link) |


29.9.03  

the downward spiral?

haven't posted in a bit - apologies. had some stuff to take care of this weekend that couldn't have been done earlier (read: i went shopping).

this is big. this is very big. senior officials within the bush administration have been accused of outing a cia agent as a revenge tactic. the justice department is beginning an inquiry into the accusations.

here's the deal - joseph wilson was the diplomat sent on an mission to niger to check on the assertion in british intelligence that saddam had tried to buy yellowcake uranium there. he found no clear and convincing evidence and became one of the most outspoken critics of bush's use of the evidence in his justification for the war. in july, robert novak, a conservative columnist, tried to smear wilson by stating that it was his wife who got him the job by suggesting it. within the article, however, novak named wilson's wife - valerie plame - and cited 2 unnamed top administration officials as sources. since then, wilson has claimed that at least 3 journalists have told him that the white house contacted them trying to push the plame story. the washington post claims that their sources have confirmed that 2 top officials cold-called at least 6 journalists or reporters trying to push the story - fortunately only novak was slimy enough to take the bait.

more about this tonite when i'm not at work.

posted by exedinburger | 12:52 PM (link) |


26.9.03  

oh man...

[i meant to write about this on tuesday but ran out of time, especially considering i was out of town on business. so pretend this is breaking news...]

edward said has died. what an unbelievable loss. not insofar as his death due to leukemia - that's wholly believable - but because of the tragic consequences this will have for palestinian advocacy, and even advocacy of the arab world in general. one day, when i'm not at work, i'll write about his influence on my own theories and beliefs. until then, i guess all i can say is r.i.p....

posted by exedinburger | 4:23 PM (link) |


20.9.03  

halloween, a month and a bit early.

for the third time now in less than 4 weeks, the power's gone out in montgomery county [due to varying degrees of thunderstorms and our recently departed friend isabel]. makes me wonder if montgo county might have a bit of a structural problem. what's weird, though, is that each time we've not lost power here at the condo. in fact, right now the power is out across the street. and we're lighted and cooled and hot-watered. i think we're due for a lack of luck very shortly.

eeriest moment of power-outage observation - a school around here has emergency-generated light in some of the front foyers and rooms. the rest of the rooms, however, have some sort of emergency alert, consisting in part of strobes flashing every few seconds. these strobes, of course, are not coordinated. looks like either a haunted spookhouse or a scene from schindler's list [which is too gruesome to mention, really].

i'd like to post some substantive content one of these days.

posted by exedinburger | 10:24 PM (link) |
 

oh man, it's like christmas!

turns out my online photo album (link to the right) is actually still up and working. and i thought it was lost forever!

things get better every hour.

posted by exedinburger | 8:04 PM (link) |
 

there's a title field now??

hot damn. it's been a million years since my last post. and the world has apparently turned upside-down. or, maybe i've been looking at it through the back of a spoon. either way, give me a few to get reacquainted with this mechanism, and i'll be back online shortly.

posted by exedinburger | 4:24 PM (link) |


4.8.03  

last update for a while... ok kids, i've gotta take off and start working in dc on wednesday, and i won't be updating for a while. on the 17th kat and i move into our new digs in silver spring, and it'll be god-knows how long before we get internet access. so, until that indefinite date, adieu...

oh, and email me if you want my new address...

posted by exedinburger | 11:22 PM (link) |


24.7.03  

golly gee. i haven't updated in, oh, a little over two weeks. so, extremely short synopsis of the events during the time i've been home:

-> unpack luggage. unpack boxes. unpack room. sleep. [week one]
-> paperwork. filing work. transcript work. [week two]
-> careers services, resumes, cover letters, references. see dad, family, friends, drive lots in car. [week three]
-> interview, interview, find job. yay! find flat. oh boy... [current]

so yeah, next up is that damn flat-hunting experience. but i'm also excited, as i've got a really cool roommate who is bringing a fish tank :). the fun starts saturday afternoon...

posted by exedinburger | 2:14 AM (link) |


8.7.03  

oh yeah... happy birthday to me :)

posted by exedinburger | 12:29 PM (link) |
 

finally! blogger wouldn't let me post to this damn thing since i've gotten back to the states! well, now that i'm back online, more updates to come...

posted by exedinburger | 12:29 PM (link) |


1.7.03  

she's alive i'm home and in one piece! and tired! very tired!

more when i'm not asleep at the wheel...

posted by exedinburger | 8:36 PM (link) |


25.6.03  

ahoy! i'm still alive - i promise! living out of a suitcase at a friend's flat right now, will be back in the states on 1 july, more updates after that. apologies to everyone who's visited only to find stale, crusty blog crumbs - there should be more soon!

posted by exedinburger | 8:48 AM (link) |


20.6.03  

blatant post-jacking. so i've decided to steal this brilliant idea from kat and make some lists of my own [i can hear her now - "why ya gotta waste my flava? damn!!"]. i thought one of my last hurrahs should be a survey of what i will and won't miss about living here in edinburgh, or scotland generally, or the uk even more generally. and like kat says, i don't want to go home yet...

i don't mind leaving behind:
combination washer/dryers [the clothing "steamer"] ** rain as the dominant weather phenomenon ** £2.00 beer that fakes you out and really costs $3.00 or thereabouts [come to think of it, pricing in general - it's damn expensive here!]
** tourists on princes street and the royal mile ** stella artois and tennants ** chicken that costs more than a year's worth of tuition ** neighbours, east enders, hollyoaks ** celebrity obsessions and perpetual socioeconomic distinctions [exhibit a: the royal family; exhibit b: posh and becks] ** fake shawerma [damn russian shaverma! so good, and even spelled differently!] ** texting ** untrusting blockbuster - have a little faith, guys! ** resnet ** the bathroom sink taps in my flat - not only are they separated into hot and cold, but they push down instead of twist, and thus our water stops flowing after only a few seconds! ** scaffolding everywhere

reasons enough to stay:
scottish accents ** the book group and cutting it ** stella artois and tennants [masochism, i think] ** the metric system ** flapjacks, naan, and hummus ** trains! ** the crags right outside my bedroom window ** highland cows and sheep ** broken dialtones ** roundabouts [they're very efficient!] ** chippies at 2am ** easyjet, ryanair, etc. ** compact cars and the prevalence of stickshifts ** texting [annoying but still fun] ** being within a timezone or two of europe ** h&m ** british chocolate ** taking public transportation ** the generally more social welfare-oriented atmosphere [moreso in scotland than the rest of the uk] ** multiparty politics and an effective green party ** nile valley and jordan valley ** pubs and pub lunches ** walking everywhere ** double decker buses ** £1 and £2 coins ** wee green men ** mmehsg-pilf ** anna, devota, lauren and louise, not to mention laura, ellie, and everyone else i've met

i'm sure i've missed out some really good ones, and if i think of them i'll add them in.

posted by exedinburger | 3:43 PM (link) |


19.6.03  

whoops! no one told me that it's been 6 days since i last posted! i suppose an update is in order then...

this is a time of many closings. the flat lease. the schoolyear. the year in edinburgh. 4 years of college generally. life in the holodeck [geek reference!]. i'll be moving out on monday morning and i've been packing for days now. i've thrown out most of my old, unworn or shunned clothing and suddenly my belongings seem lighter despite the accumulation throughout the year. maybe it's a ritual cleansing thing, a sort of defining purification. i don't know - my goal was to lighten my luggage. but it feels like it could be the start of something new, or at least looks that way in hindsight, which is proof enough to convince me that my life is run like a contrived novella, an episode of "full house" where the moral lessons always come on dad's knee. but it's nothing unique, hindsight is always useful for convincing ourselves of that anyway.

i'll be at a friend's flat for a week before i come back to the states on 1 july, so posting should be sparse for a while [a change indeed, you say]. after that i'm hoping for big changes but i'll settle for new shoes.

posted by exedinburger | 9:20 PM (link) |


14.6.03  

happy father's day! love you very much, dad!

posted by exedinburger | 9:43 PM (link) |


13.6.03  

the weather. or, what lies ahead. the weather is oftentimes not my best friend. on my list of Things Of Which I Am Truly Scared, populated by at most 4 or 5 entries, lies the force that is the tornado, a weather phenomenon with which i've been obsessed since elementary school. i used to watch the weather channel obsessively, scan the skies every few minutes for signs of peculiarities, go into a virtual shutdown during the windy run-up to a storm. i was 16 and driving home from school when, while listening to the radion, i learned that a funnel cloud appeared to touch down about 5 miles from where i was driving at the time - i drove to a friend's house instead and had a panic attack. a similar thing happened last summer at uva, but i was inside a computer lab at the time and didn't know until after the fact.

i guess i've gotten over my extreme fear of tornados and settled on the less adrenaline-filled awed fascination of them, but the weather still has the power to chill me. i was driving outside of charlottesville one night, right after midnight, in a fog that had settled below the clouds and was starting to reach towards the street lights. in the glow of the red and yellow sulfur lamps the fog looked like flames bearing down on the earth from above, hiding from sight in the distance between the lights. sometimes a fog will drift in here in edinburgh, or the clouds will hang low out of the sky and blanket the top of the crags, and i'll feel somewhat suffocated. a few nights ago, at around 11 or so, when the sky is still light enough to contrast with the clouds, a cloud moved through the sky as rain fell from its tail-end - i could see the rain falling against the sky, and it looked like the cloud was trying to grab the ground. it's times like these that i feel the weather is replete with personalities that make themselves known primarily to disquiet me.

but lately i've also noticed a kind of benevolence in the weather around me. in the week between my arrival to edinburgh and the beginning of the first term, the weather was gorgeous, warm, sunny and bright blue. that warmth ended on the first week of school, and has not returned. has not, that is, until last week, the last week of term and, incidentally, the last week of my career as an undergraduate. exams brought the warm and sunny skies back to edinburgh and with it some of the optimism that went with the anticipation of a year of school abroad. the weather speaks to me, i'm sure, and tells me not to be afraid of moving on.

*****

it's 3 o'clock in the morning and the birds are chirping again. every morning at 3am they do this. are they talking about the day just passed, or the one ahead?

posted by exedinburger | 9:58 PM (link) |


9.6.03  

a simple reminder. to all those who argue that palestinian militant groups must cease violent activities for the peace process to begin again, remember that

"For radical groups such as Hamas, any peaceful resolution that recognizes Israel's existence is anathema..." [quote taken from this wapo story, which is interesting but not required reading.]

radical palestinian groups will not agree to a cease-fire for the road map's sake because they do not agree with the road map's conclusions - palestine, for them, cannot exist as part of a two-state solution. israel's existence is illegitimate, palestine is wrongly occupied, and any solution compromising these claims goes against the very pillars of their beliefs. any attempts by abu mazen to call for a cease-fire on the part of radical groups is futile because [a] radical groups do not recognize his authority as speaker for them or the palestinian people and [b] abu mazen is not the policy director of the radical groups. just a reminder.

posted by exedinburger | 8:11 PM (link) |
 

rapid modernization of britain's legal system. britain's barristers are forced to get with the times and conquer the latest in hip hop slang:

"This led to the faintly surreal experience of three gentlemen in horsehair wigs examining the meaning of such phrases as "mish mish man" and "shizzle my nizzle," the judge said.

i'm also pleased that the judge went searching on the internet for the meaning of the mysterious phrases. onward with the e-revolution!

posted by exedinburger | 8:01 PM (link) |
 

taking a flying leap over the celebratory gun. woohoo! israel has begun dismantling settler outposts! the road map seems to be working!

oh, wait. those were uninhabited outposts. and the next six of seven to be dismantled are also uninhabited.

[insert snide comment about the ineffectiveness of the whole "road map" operation itself.]

posted by exedinburger | 2:14 PM (link) |
 

aarrrgggghhhhhh!!! the man gets me down again! so i post a rant about why i hate the phrase "in these uncertain times", and i look up today and see an ad above my blog for the british red cross, asking for donations in "uncertain times". i give up!

back to scottish political thought. 24 hours from now and i'll be done with undergraduate studies forever!

**update: the man keeps getting me down. apparently haloscan goes down completely, and now it appears to have eaten some of my comments. one day i'll move to moveable type, as soon as i can afford it.

posted by exedinburger | 11:29 AM (link) |
 

intermission substance. so i'm off in a few minutes to go and study for my last final ever as an undergraduate, but i thought i'd leave you with these little bits in the meantime, just to let you know i'm still alive and functioning.

i used to think of myself as a language purist - i realized that this wouldn't work when i started writing philosophy papers and had to make up words to get across what i wanted to describe. i think this type of language innovation is perfectly ok. i'm also quite happy to allow mainstream slang into the accepted lexicon, especially if it's gone global. that being said, there's one particularly irking area of language innovation that gets me every time - i cannot stand it when people forget that a perfectly usable verb exists, and instead takes the noun form of the verb and creates another verb out of it. two examples: 'to orientate' [from 'orientation', original verb 'to orient'] and 'to conversate' [from 'conversation', original verb 'to converse']. in the case of 'to orientate', the oxford english dictionary lists the definition as 'to orient'. utter redundancy. and 'to conversate' doesn't even exist!!! [by the way, i also have issues with the oxford english dictionary's hegemony over lexicology - as well as lexicography - but that's another post entirely.]

*****

i had this extremely strange dream the other night. i was with both of my parents [which, incidentally, doesn't really happen anymore - divorce and all] and we were in this strange little town on a hill with wooden houses on stilts. the hill wasn't huge, but the ground was raised enough such that i could see quite far in the distance. we were standing around doing god-know's-what when i saw a huge fireball in the distance coming toward us. it didn't actually look like a fireball - it looked instead like an avalanche of fire, or maybe like the dust cloud that flew down the streets of manhattan when the towers collapsed on 09/11. anyway, it was evident that this huge fireball/wave/thing was lava flow from a volcano that was coming for us, and fast, and so we all ran ran ran away from it as fast as we could. eventually we stopped running, not because we had outrun it, but because we realized that lava was coming for us in all directions and we couldn't run anywhere else. the lava behind us stopped flowing for some reason, and we found ourselves encircled by fresh lava. our plot of untouched ground was maybe 10 meters in diameter, not much room, but enough to pace. at this point i realized that we were all going to die in this little circle of ground - the lava would be too hot to walk on for days [don't know if that's true, but it was in the dream], the town around us was destroyed, and for some reason it appeared - and at least i felt intensely - that we were the last people on earth. it was strange, knowing i was going to die in that little circle, and that i couldn't stop this death through any particular actions of my own. i was extremely scared when i woke up.

posted by exedinburger | 6:39 AM (link) |
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